Life is so complicated!:(

I don't knw why..I hate my way that I work so many hard but at last I will fail..I use all my heart,my energy,my life and everything to do a thing but at last I will not success...so is this God telling me I gotto not bored not using anything not even looked at it then I will success?!What the Hell is this!!I just really don't understand why I was so fcuking.....girl in the word!!i just wanna been what I been I liked..why I couldn't did it..I just really don't knw what should I do.....maybe...I don't knw..I juz feel my heart breaking....Sigh....I really hate the situation now....